Showing posts with label good friday. Show all posts
Showing posts with label good friday. Show all posts
Friday, March 25, 2016
Good Friday in Our Lives
Think about your worst moments. The worst moments of your life. Rock bottom. Despair. Hopelessness. Whatever you want to call it. Think of the moment that life seemed unbearable and you didn't think you would make it.
I don't know what this time is for you, but I think mine was one night (just around a year ago), as I stood at the top of a flight of stairs and contemplated taking my own life. I thought about how easy it would be to simply throw myself down the stairs and end everything. It didn't cross my mind that this might not even kill me. All I cared about was that it could.
This was my Good Friday. When I looked at life and wondered what could possibly matter. If anything could actually have a purpose. If life was actually worth it. If you had asked me then, I would have said that it wasn't. It felt like I was drowning in a dark ocean with no bottom in sight. As much as I looked for light, I couldn't find it. It seemed hopeless.
But it wasn't. Eventually, the sun started to shine. Hidden at by the obstacles in my life, but still there. Slowly, the sun became more and more prominent.
We're each going to face a "Good Friday" in our life. Maybe multiple. The time when we can't find God anywhere and He is gone from our lives.
But He will not leave us wanting. He is never gone. If we experience a Good Friday, surely, we will experience an Easter Sunday, too.
Friday, April 3, 2015
Friday, April 18, 2014
Good Friday Confessions.
And then there's this girl.
I'm the girl who deleted the facebook and twitter apps from her phone, but didn't have enough self control to stay off of the sites from Safari. I told myself I wasn't using the apps so I wasn't *really* breaking my sacrifice.
I'm the girl who made the promise to go to daily mass every Monday, Wednesday and Friday, but in the entirety of Lent, went about five times.
I went to confession on Sunday night. And about two hours later, I sinned again.
And now as Lent's over, I felt angry at God that I didn't have some great spiritual experience. But, really, there's no reason to be angry.
I'm human. I'm gonna fall. I'm gonna get back up again, but chances are, I'll fall back down.
That's what Lent was like for me. A whole lot of falling and getting back up.
But: I got up. I didn't stay on the ground. I got back up.
My friend Christine wrote a great post that really spoke to me as I was struggling after my confession and immediate sinning. Through this weakness, God is giving me grace.
Tomorrow, I will be going to confession again. I'm getting back up, and I'm going to run.
Labels:
catholic,
catholic life,
confession,
good friday,
lent,
sin
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